Baby it’s just too tight.
Those jeans you’re trying to squeeze your ass into.
That shirt you can barely button
Honey, you can’t even breathe.
Why do you continually insist on wearing outdated versions of yourself.
Stuff from way back when
The things you thought you looked so damn good in.
That front you put on
That denim amour that kept you safe for a time.
That shit is old.
You’re a grown ass woman now.
Of course you’re ass doesn’t fit in that.
That bullshit facade that you hid behind
Those are for young ladies who don’t quite know themselves.
You’ve been places
You’ve seen things
You are such a bad ass your amour is skin deep
So no clothes required.
Walk out into the world as you came in
Free of the binding of others
With open heart and open mind.
Small furry tractors make their rows in the blue blanketThen come to a rest in a warm spot
Engines still running
Below the surface there’s life.
Wanting to reach out toward the light.
But feeling the coziness of the earth.
Life moves and stretches underneath
Then comes to a rest
Maybe for just a few more minutes
Bare bulb in the basement
The slow controlled exhale of breath
My clenched fist paces the floor
Flashes of images pass by my personal tv screen
Rage moves through me so fast I don’t remember hitting that bag
Barely under control
Scary to witness
This anger is only reserved for the absolute screw ups
Those who weave in the art of carelessness
Who paint in stupidity
Who chip away at trust
Who mold forgetfulness
Who can barely see beyond the mess that they are creating
This volcanic heat is just that.
But only for time. Just until the rocks have time to settle.
Then it’s unleashed
The temperature is unbareable
Today the rage is palpable
Goosebumps on my skin
There is only one culpable party
It has to be me.